It used to catch me off guard. A vision or dream would show me a next step or some aspect of my future. I would get so excited in anticipation of what was to come and then…
… things seemed to fall apart, as though suddenly the Universe was shaking its head.
I used to think that something was wrong with me.
Thankfully, with the help of one of my elders, I came to understand that before the joys of transformation can take hold, something has to happen first.
Letting go and the chaos that comes with it
To emerge into who we truly are, we must first let go of who we think we are.
If we want the Divine to express through us, then anything that would encumber our complete experience of Divine presence…
… well, we get an opportunity to let it go.
In simple language, some part of us must die in order to truly live.
This concept isn’t new. It’s been going on since the beginning of creation.
But, if you believe that everything running smoothly is the sign that you have Divine approval, you can easily become confused and think you are off course.
In reality, any chaos or discomfort is bringing to the surface anything you need to let go of in order to fulfill Divine intention through you.
Holding on is believing there is only a past; letting go is knowing that there’s a future. —Daphne Rose Kingman
What happened to me
This happened to me recently. I had opened up completely to the Divine, offering my unrestricted service to humanity and the planet.
In response, I was called into a profound space of service in the spiritual realms for the better part of a night.
The next morning, I received a download of energy, similar to a bolt of lightning running through me.
It took a few days to receive the full transmission, which included some specific service in the world.
I was in a blissful state for days as I remained present to the ecstatic energy running through me.
Later, I understood this energy had been building up for nearly a month. But the peak experience helped me understand just how important this sacred work could be.
I said, “Yes,” to the sacred work and began to share it with my team.
What I neglected to consider
What I neglected to pay attention to was that this visionary information sounded like a complete diversion from the work we had been doing.
Some of my team members were frustrated and confused by my seemingly sudden shift in direction, and my accompanying shift in demeanor.
That shift created some uncomfortable chaos.
But in order for any of us to transform, we must die to our previous definitions of ourselves. And for me, along with a new life—a death was taking place.
Obstacles, I learned from my elders, are simply reflections of our fears and resistance. They provide an opportunity to die to perceptions that are no longer needed.
There is no one to blame when this happens. There are simply fears to Hold in compassion until they die a natural death and new clarity arrives.
Out of the swamp of chaos
Fortunately, I have ancestors who helped me walk through my limiting beliefs, so that I could be fully present to the vision that was given to me.
And we all have ancestors who will help guide us in these moments of transformation, if we are willing to call upon them for help.
I also used the ancient practices I have learned for releasing resistance.
You can learn and apply them too in your own journey of transformation. They are available in my video program, SHE: Doorway to the Divine.
Now that the dust has settled and the fears are gone, I’m able to move forward with the joyful and practical steps of bringing a sacred vision to life.
What of recurring negative scenarios? I keep thinking it is because there is something unfinished that needs to be dealt with, but each time it happens, it’s as tho nothing really changes. How can I know if it is something I’m supposed to close the door to and not let it enter (like maybe it’s a test?) or if I need to try yet again to resolve the situation?
Linda, I appreciate your question about recurring negative scenarios. Yes, I too see them as unfinished states. I wonder if your exploration needs both – resolving the situation so that you can lovingly close the door? I find when something is truly resolved, I have no blame left in me – not for me or anyone else. I finally see a picture big enough that all the players and experiences make sense to me, and I better understand all the wounded parts that are playing out. My heart opens in compassion, and when the love is vast enough – the issue is truly resolved. That’s why I love the Holding Meditation so much. It has a way of helping me Hold everything I see and do not see in the vast healing energy of limitless love. If I try to do it with my thinking mind, I can rarely create enough shift in consciousness. But in Divine consciousness, everything shifts with relative ease. If you don’t already have it, you can download the meditation for free, here on the home page. If you really get the most out of it, I recommend the SHE: Doorway to the Divine video program. Holding you!
Does this also happen during healing..like a ‘healing crisis’..?
Sue, this is a very good question. I have certainly experienced that after receiving profound healing, where symptoms get worse for a little while. I know we call it a crisis, but I find it is as though our subconscious minds know we are now ready to take the healing even more deeply into other hidden fears, doubts and limits. I like to think more of me is crying out to be loved. The letting go is about letting go of the limitations I have placed on my capacity to experience Divine love. And I must learn how to sustain greater love for more of my wounded parts until the wounds have dissolved and they are replaced with joy.
Good morning Misa.
Perhaps this book by Satish Kumar arrived at an appropriate time and I read it at an appropriate time, although I didn’t have any blinding spiritual experience as you did. But the book does agree with my philosophy of the diverse web of life. Too often we are fascinated by the show and go along with the dualistic beliefs that prevail in the world. There are times when some of your statements persuade to type something in response to what thought you have expressed. Today a contact told me of a debate between Dan Barker and a Christian minister and I discovered that this debate lasted for almost two hours! The Christian and the Atheists at it again; and what is left at the end of the day? Both arguments are probably left unresolved and the dogmatism of the two speakers remains. As for the audience, their ideas probably remain the same as well. Whatever mission your spiritual elders entrusted to you I hope it flourishes.
Hi George,
Ah Satish Kumar. I have not read any of his work, but his gentle face speaks volumes, as does his commitment to peace and the environment. If you are open to channeled work, you might appreciate some of the views I learned from Mary Magdalene about the various religions and spiritual beliefs we entertain here on Mother Earth. You can find it here: https://sacredfeminineawakening.com/mary-magdalene-healing-humanity/. It does seem that our ideas and beliefs change slowly, which begs the question: “How do we limit our perceptions and how can we expand them?” That seems like a worthwhile exploration to me. Thank you for your good wishes. At night before I sleep and each morning as I rise, I ask how I might fulfill that beautiful mission. Then, I get to watch sweet miraculous moments unfold. 🙂